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The Letters of Erotic Devotion
My journey to sexual liberation through giving head with desire
I never had issues with orgasms or painful sex. My personal struggles were in feeling confident about what I was doing and receiving. I would second guess myself. I was definitely a passive participant in the bedroom. I waited to be done to.
My personal struggles were in feeling alive, open and erotic. My struggles were about the shame attached to sex and what that meant if I enjoyed it - fully and truly with self-abandon.
I could surrender to orgasm but I couldn’t surrender to being fully in the moment and touching with devotion, passion and desire.
There was no hunger there.
One of the places where my sexuality felt ‘stuck’ was in giving head. I had learnt a few techniques and didn’t really get any complaints - not that I know of!
But, I didn’t enjoy it. It was a chore. It didn’t get me excited. I would avoid doing it if I really could.
There were many parts that didn’t feel great about it - being on my knees, I often felt used after doing it… I was quietly hoping that it would be over so we could move onto something different.
I did it for them. Not for me.
And so, what I am going to share with you here is a series of emails of my personal struggles with blowjobs.
I share the patterns of shame
The places where I felt disconnected from my power.
The places where I felt shut down.
And I’m going to share with you the very journey to liberation that not only impacted my own relationship to giving oral sex, but in fact impacted my confidence in the bedroom.
My confidence in asking for what I want.
My confidence in initiating sex.
My confidence in being the woman liberated in the bedroom - alive, in bliss, orgasmic and fully turned on by going down on a man.
This journey took me to a place where I gave myself permission to want sex when and how I wanted it.
And that means devouring a man’s member for my personal erotic enjoyment and bliss.​
This series of emails is a big share for me. I first launched a blowjob course a few years ago now but because I was still rooted in shame over it, how I talked about it was surface level. I didn’t share the full transformation and what this work actually meant. So I hid it from public view. Now the time is feeling more aligned.
So what you are going to experience in this email series are a deep vulnerable share of my relationship to men, penises, ejaculation, my own personal power, being on my knees and my relationship to finding pleasure in touching someone else.
Because I’m ready now to own it. To be vulnerable. To share my story. To inspire and educate other women on their erotic journey of liberation and how touching others can be the a step towards our greatest turn on.
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To how we can give head from devotion, from desire.